Simply Tired

Hello. I am exhausted. My job is going well, but with that and school leaves one tired blogger (by the way, the image above is intended to look that way). It’s okay, though. In a few weeks everything will die down and then I’ll be able to think a little bit more clearly. But let’s get to tonight’s post.

A question has been lingering in my head: why do those who have so much, have so little that is important? If you are confused by this statement, that’s cool. Basically, what I am saying is that many people who have their every want attended to really have very little of the thing that matters most and that is God. As I get older, many people around me claim to follow God, but at the heart of what they believe lies a love for other things. They do not truly know God because there is not a desire to know Him. Why? Possessions, plenty of food, an isolation from death and a society that doesn’t welcome thinking beyond the surface. We don’t understand our need for Him because of all the things around us that are bolstering human kinds natural hate for the things of God. We have become numb.

If you think that I am isolating myself from this…you are wrong. I’m going to admit my struggle: I am in a crisis of faith. I have seen and felt how easy it is to simply pass by day to day concerned with self. It is comfortable, easy, thoughtless, and in some ways very carefree. If you do not comprehend what these feelings are, maybe it has because you have known God for your whole life and have not had the unfortunate state of being away from Him. I know many people like this, and for them, these words will not make a sensible sentence. They ask, “How could you grow cold when you know what Jesus has done for you?!” It is a slow fade.

In my lifetime, eighteen years which is incredibly short by the way, I have experienced two things in regard to faith.

People who love the Lord and condemn wrongdoing and sin, but fail to present it in a way that truly seems appealing (just as the things of Jesus were appealing. Hard to live, but appealing).
People who claim to love God, but do not display any repentance or some significant sign that they are willing to live what they believe.
For the most part, these two groups of people are not the same. People who truly have accepted Christ do hate sin and those who could care less usually hate only certain aspects of sin. But in my life, I have had the unfortunate pleasure of dealing with people who live differently because of God, but cannot properly convey to the world the joy they have found. They appear fake. They turn their noses up at almost anything. They say, “Well this video was using things of the world to try to evangelize people.” After dealing with these kinds of Christians, one starts to feel the burden that they produce on the people around them. Sure, they might be fine individuals with a zeal for God, but the way the persons convey the Good News stops just short of legalism. These are the individuals that have lead me to despair when I acknowledge them as an authority over or under me.

The other kind of people are the ones who know of God but are too busy and too comfortable to want to know God. I am around these people day in and day out. The reason that there are more of these people than the “steeped in doctrine” people is because being comfortable and having a flexible standard is easier than having a rigid standard. If these people were to be hit with suffering, most of them would turn to God because they recognize their need for Him in those moments of despair.

But for now, as long as we have plenty, the harvest will continue to grow and the soil will continue to harden.
I just want you to know that I do love God. I will never deny Him as my true Father. Everyone who becomes a Christian journeys through a time of doubt. My time is now. But I will continue to remember all of the things that God has done for me as I travel.

Thank you! Think of me as you will.


Tangent Time V10: Update

Hello everyone. I have recently started a new job so I will have to adjust to the new hours before I start posting again. I meant to post something this past Friday, but I completely forgot because I was exhausted from the new job. Hopefully throughout the week I’ll be able to find some time to upload a story or something along those lines.

Anyways, I just wanted to let everyone know what is happening. I am not giving up on blogging, I’m simply having to make some adjustments so I can continue to do it. If I have some time, I may make a continuation to this post later in the week as well as the blog that appears on the weekends.

Thank you for being understanding and once again I’m not quitting, just making some adjustments!!


The Myriad

Tangent Time V9: Phinehas

Hey guys! So I found a very cool band recently. Now, I probably should say this right off of the bat, they are a metal core band. So that means crazy, heavy guitar, drums and bass and yes, of course, screaming. But don’t let that deter you away from reading this. Because this band, called Phinehas has something very big to say through what some people would call “incessant noise”.

So this Phinehas started back in 2001 in California. The band underwent many lineup changes before settling on Sean McCulloch (vocals), Jason Combs (guitars), Ryan Estrada (bass) and Lee Humerian (drums). It wasn’t until these musicians got a hold of the band that it started to actually go somewhere.

In 2009, the band released their self-titled EP. They went on a very short tour in support of the album before initiating work on their first full length album entitled thegodmachine. This definitely gained the band some praise and began moving things forward for new material to be written.

In early 2013, Phinehas released the Bridge Between.  This was just a short album that included some previous tracks the band had made that were either remastered or done acoustically by the band. But later in 2013, the band released The Last Word is Yours to Speak. This is the first album by them that I heard and it is an amazing album! I was at the alive festival when a vendor recommended this album to me saying that it was one of his favorites. I gave it a shot and I am so happy I did.

In the past year, the band hasn’t slowed down. They released their Till the End in the summer of 2015. I will admit, at first I wasn’t liking the sound the band chose for this album. Until I realized I couldn’t stop listening to it. Just when I thought the musicianship and songwriting couldn’t get any better, this band surprised me!

Now, songs that have stuck out to me lyrically are very hard to narrow down. There is simply so much content in each song that it is very hard to choose. But for an example, I’ve chosen the song “The Deepest of Graves”. The chorus of this song is:

Somewhere between bearing my shame
and wearing my pain
You still find it in you to love me
for who I am I never cease to fail you
But you still love me past my debt

You sow life in the deepest of graves

(For miles) I see no end to your flowing grace
You sow life in the deepest of graves

Another song would be “Dyson Sphere.” Where he says:

I am who contains the universe
who makes the ocean floor a road
I am who cranes the stars in place
I am who your mind cannot encase
Can you even think of me without reducing me?

 If you haven’t realized, all of these are pointed at God. A lot of people think that you can’t use metal and harsh vocals to talk about God or use them as an avenue to witness. To a certain extent that might be true, but at the same time it isn’t. You cannot limit God to a musical style or type of vocals if you believe He truly is that powerful. But that aside, if you like metal, you should really listen to this band. The musicianship is incredible and the lyrics are powerful even if they are sometimes hard to understand.

That is it guys! Be sure to like the post, comment if you want, and follow if need be. Thanks!


The Myriad


Yo, guys! It’s is The Myriad as usual. First of all, I would like to thank everyone for their support. It has been pretty awesome to see this blog grow. Enjoy!

I really like music. I enjoy listening to EVERY kind of music and playing EVERY kind of music as well. That’s why today I’m pretty excited to talk to you about a band called “Heartsong”. If you’ve never heard of Heartsong, that is okay. I don’t think anyone west of Ohio has probably heard of them. Heartsong is a collection of musicians who seek to glorify God through song worship. Now don’t leave just yet! This is not your typical contemporary worship band.

Heartsong is a band that was started at Cedarville University. The “band” is actually just a name with four different bands under that name that are separated by a team color. So you have:

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2015-2016 teams.

Together these teams make up Heartsong! (2015-2016 teams) I’m going to be honest, I don’t know when Heartsong was started. But, what I do know is that they’re are some amazing people within this group.

All of the men and women that are a part of Heatsong are students at Cedarville. The way it works is that if someone wants to be a member of the band, you have to sign up for auditions within the instrument you play (that includes voices as well). From what I’ve heard, auditions can be hard. The staff that is in charge of managing the band want to select people who are competent with their talents and who long to serve God. Once a person has sparked an interest in the leaders, they will call them for an interview. If they are liked, then they get the gig more or less.

It is a ton of hard work though. The students involved have to balance school work with band practice and rehearsal which can be very demanding. Not to mention that the band does a small tour almost every weekend where they play at conferences, camps, churches and other places. They have a time during the summer where they tour for ten weeks straight! So yeah, “lot a hard work”. But most of the members would say that it is more than worth it.

The best thing about Heartsong is this: the people on stage are not seeking to glorify themselves. When the band exits the stage, you can find them socializing among teens and adults eager to meet people and more than willing to serve. For example, I went to a camp this past summer where Heartsong happened to be playing and for five whole days they played and participated right alongside everyone else. It was very reassuring to witness these musicians wanting to spend time with us.

Heartsong puts out albums yearly and they are pretty good. Remember that these are college students that are doing this. Not completely seasoned professionals. As of now, they are preparing to release a new album called “Ascribe”. When it comes out in like a week, you should check it out!

That is it! See you back on Monday hopefully!


The Myriad

Heartsong website

Heartsong Teams

Tangent Time V8: Terrible Movies

What’s up, guys! I hope everyone is having a good day. It’s Monday…that means there’s an entire week ahead. But let’s get to this weeks Tangent Time.

Yesterday, my best friend had a birthday party. So, being the fantastic friend that I am, I quickly ran into Walmart, about an hour before his party, and picked up two movies from the $3 DVD bin. As I was digging through years and years of cheap movies, (some of them good,most of them bad) I came across The Happening with Mark Wahlberg. I had never heard of it, but what I could tell immediately was that M. Night Shyamalan had directed the film. Oh boy! It has always been a mixed bag with him. But I decided to give the film a shot and buy it for my best friend. I also bought The Last Stand with Arnold Schwarzenegger, a film I had seen and really liked. Just a contingency plan of course.

After my friends’ party was over, we sat down to watch The Happening. From the very start of the film, aka. the menu screen, I had a bad feeling. I am one of those people that can make fairly good judgement calls based on a film’s box art, the studio’s involved, and yes, even the menu screen. This one was very basic, the snippets of the film playing in the menu, looked blurry and very low quality which did nothing to raise my hopes for this movie. Once we watched it, occasionally laughing at the terrible dialogue this movie had in it, we both agreed that it was pretty bad. Even Mark Wahlberg’s acting was not very good.

This got me thinking: What are the top 3 worst movies I have ever seen? I’m limiting this to three because I usually do my best to forget about terrible movies, therefore, I have the worst time recalling them.

wrath_of_the_titans_poster3: Wrath of the Titans: This film had a big budget, pretty cool special effects, and a lot of hype behind when the trailer was released. My mom actually bought this film for my birthday several years ago and I was pretty excited. My friend and I (same friend as before) watched this film and were enraged at the way it tried to do Greek Mythology. Meaning that it was completely false most of the time. Oh! We were also in stitches for a lot of the film. Parts were so hilariously dumb, like a guy who can get thrown through granite column after granite column and still be perfectly fine, that we had to stop the movie because we were laughing so hard. For your information, it wasn’t meant to be funny. Don’t watch this!

0022113722: Legend of Cougar Canyon: Has anyone ever heard of this movie? Probably not. It was supposed to be about watching a cougar in its natural habitat, but also have a story and human characters alongside it. Think of movies like Lobo or Charlie: The Lonesome Cougar. However, this movie was so confusing. First of all, nothing ever happened. The cougar just randomly roared (roared? Screamed? Hissed? I have no idea) at other animals and walked around the countryside. The characters were supposed to be descendants of certain Native American tribes. But all the film did was scare me with depictions of skulls and a legend that some of them, when they died, were trapped on earth, so you could still here they’re screams in the canyons at night. All of this combined with the fact that nothing happened! Don’t watch this movie! Just don’t! My whole family loves westerns, but this one was the worst one out of all of them.

jhrQa74SRulO5WEr3J3GJabPlQp.jpg1: 500 MPH Storm: Oh man…I found this film on Netflix and my mom and I decided to watch it. It is a tradition of ours I suppose, to watch films that we know nothing about. Sometimes it’s good, and sometimes it’s this. The film was supposed to be about catastrophes, but I think the filmmakers forgot that the movie was the catastrophe. In this film, you have terrible acting, overly rich, supposedly average American characters. I mean, the people are living in mansions for goodness sake! I’m supposed to believe that these people are underpaid?! They look like they’re doing just fine to me! Ridiculous storm sequences where the cars in front! of the main character’s car are being swept up into a massive tornado. Oh and to escape this they flee into a warehouse where the walls are glass paned panels! What?! The plot starts off just as the storm is starting, with people high-fiving and congratulating one another for completing a project that the viewer has no idea of and has never seen! What caused this storm?! You never find out! One last thing, there is a scene with a helicopter where it get’s thrown around by the storm. The sky is an apocalyptic red, fires are raging, and it looks like doomsday! So the chopper crashes with leading protagonist, or, at least, I think he’s the protagonist, and then he wakes up! Guess what?! The sky is blue! Birds are singing! The sun is shining and it looks as if it’s shaping up to be a beautiful day! What!!!!???? Dumb character’s and the worst acting I’ve ever seen make this movie a plague! DO NOT WATCH!

Alright, thanks for reading. Let me know what your worst experiences with movie’s are in the comments section. Thank you for the support and have a good week!


Alex’s Lemonade Stand Foundation

What’s up, guys!? It’s The Myriad here and today I’m going to be bringing everyone something special. But first, I need to tell a short story.

Back in mid-January, I was on a plane headed for home. I had just finished up some skiing with my grandfather in the beautiful mountains of Salt Lake City, Utah. While I was on this trip I brought along a book to read. The book was written by TobyMac and was entitled “City on our Knees.”

This book is a compilation of true stories that tell of ordinary people stepping out and doing something courageous. A few of these stories are incredible while others are a bit smaller in scope. But how magnificent or petite the stories may seem, every one of them started with one person taking a step across a line. Choosing to think about others, showing kindness to the person that hates them, peacefully protesting racial segregation, etc. An entry that I found at the beginning of the book was about Alexandra Scott. A young girl whose life inspired me to start this blog. I hope you enjoy her story.

Before the mere age of one, Alexandra Scott was already facing a struggle that has cracked the mind and body of an adult. You see, Alexandra had been diagnosed with cancer named Neuroblastoma. To have this cancer removed, Alexandra spent twelve hours in a surgery that hoped to remove the literal death from her body. Unfortunately, the surgery left her paralyzed from the chest down. The doctors said that she wouldn’t even be able to crawl when she came of age.

But not too long after the surgery, Alex was able to move her legs and by the age of two, she was crawling around as any toddler would. She even acquired knee braces to help her stand up, and of course, she eventually didn’t even need those. The problem began when her cancerous cells started growing again. In just three months, she had three surgeries to try and stop the cancer. By age four, she was receiving heavy doses of chemotherapy in an attempt to combat the cancer.

Alex’s mind, on the other hand, was alive and well. While all of the treatments were going on, Alexandra had an idea: What if she started a summer lemonade stand? Most people have done this to earn some money when they are kids, and there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. But Alex wanted any money she earned to go to her doctors so that they could find a cure for others who had Neuroblastoma. So that summer, she and her family set up (on their front lawn) Alex’s Lemonade Stand for Childhood Cancer. At the end of that summer, she had raised $2,000.

For the next few years, Alex raised more and more money. Her venture was even featured on many television channels and news networks. In 2002, she raised $12,000. In 2003, she raised $18,000. Finally, in 2004, she was able to raise approximately 1.4 million dollars. People worldwide had found out about Alex’s Lemonade Stand’s and were encouraged to make a difference right where they were at. Everyone, from senior citizens to kids, to teenagers’s and young adults, and even homeless people, became inspired to take part in what Alex was doing and make a difference.

As with many stories that are real, happy endings are hard to come by. On August 1st, 2004, Alex passed away. Alex accomplished more in eight years than most people do in a single lifetime. However, she simply took one step forward and tried something new. She was held back by the cancer, but she didn’t choose to allow it to hold her down.

What was once a young girls’ summer idea, has since then flourished into a fundraising (and annual summer) event for cancer research. As of now, Alex’s Lemonade Stand Foundation, or ALSF, has raised over 120 million dollars for research in cancer. The money collected, is distributed to children who are seriously ill. The organization continues to grow, with over a hundred hospitals being supplied with the funds raised by ALSF. You know? I think if Alexandra was alive today, she would disagree with the idea that the end had come. For her, maybe…but for what she left behind, it was only the beginning.

I believe that everyone can make an impact is some way or another every day. Learn from Alex. Don’t let life slip away. Alex only lived eight years. Did you know, eight years ago I was ten? Did you know that eight years ago was 2008 and the U.S. went through a recession? Did you know that eight years ago, our country received a new president? The core value is: So much can happen in just eight years. Don’t waste your life. Sure, you may never be recognized like Alex was, but that doesn’t matter. What matter’s is making a positive impact in people’s lives. As you go, remember Alex. She was just four years old when she made her first lemonade stand. She didn’t set out to be famous or create an organization, she simply wanted to help other kids who were suffering from cancer.

I hope this story inspires you the same way it did for me. Like, comment,  and follow the blog (if you want) and I will hopefully be around in the next one if the Lord wills. Be sure to check out ALSF! That is it!


The Myriad

To Alex